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Sunday, September 23, 2012

School's Out Forever? Or Not?

I was still dreaming.
Class has started, teacher stood. 
Her foot tapped, tapped, tapped.
-a Haiku, I submitted for a scholarship contest

My night dreams send me to school at least once a week. (One dream involved a school bus crash in my driveway with a child inside. I watched from my front door.) Often times it's high school, other times college, and a few times elementary or middle school. Peers, some of which I only had few verbal exchanges and whom I haven't seen or thought of for years appear in my dreams too. They usually come in with their one-liners. While others, I guess, are just there to fill the background space like an extra on a movie set.

I sometimes wonder if any of them have thought of me through the years or if they even remember my name. 

School dreams are have several meanings; a lesson to be learned, a need to your educate yourself on important life matters, failure, being ill prepared, etc.

I've been feeling like a failure and I can't seem to move on from this feeling. Unaccomplished.

I never thought I'd be on a "TEN YEAR PLAN"! It's not like a set out for it.